rukario71

As MidWest Fur Fest 2007, is logged in the history books now, I refect on the great joy this wonderous three days had brought me, especially in light of a very severe slump that I had been in emotionally over the last two, over the loss of two "friends".  Probably one of the best decisions, I had made in some time, the decision to attend this convention was purely and quite literally last minute, this decision also brought with it a very import life lesson -- life must go on, good, bad or indifferent.   While I wanted to attempt to "recover" from the events of the previous weeks,  sitting at home, was probably the worst thing I could have done.  

I gathered the strength from my spirts and mustered up the gumption to attend, and what a time it was.  The energy at these conventions, is nothing short of awe inspiring in there own right.  The diversity and open mindedness that pours forth from this often "misunderstood" community of very diverse individuals, is really the epotmy of what we are about, and while "convention anxiety" didn't hit me AS bad this time, I still wanted to jump into Bill Murry's shoes, and re-live those days, as he did, in his hit theatrical release, "Groundhog Day".  

The names I could mention, could fill this page to its brim. You know who you are, and I love and respect you all, and especially everyone else, who made their intital discovery into the Furry Community, like one very good friend of mine did.  These events are very profound, and should not be dismissed as anything less.

Okay, okay, I know what you are thinking...."Where are the pictures?"  I got 'em, lots of them.  So enjoy!  Thanks to everyone I met at this wonderful convention, to all the great new friends I met, and just everyone who worked so hard to make this event so special.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/9987897@N08

*Hugs to all*

Rukario

A new day....

Generally seen by many a mundane and un-eventful.  That may hold true.  However, a new day for me means being one step closer to living the life that I DESERVE, and that alone gives me the drives and the ambition to keep going, even in light of the temporary challenges that life is currently dealing me.  

That is okay though, because with life's adversities, also come equal or greater victories for advancement and growth, in all aspects of life.  This is important to know and understand, as this is a primary factor in achiving total alignment in one's persuit of success and happiness.  

A new day, a new opportunity, and a day to reflect upon the trials of yesterday, and the the opportunities of today. :)

*Onward and Upward*

Rukario

This weekend saw, a swath of emotions come over me; feelings of intense melancholy and loneliness filled my heart.  

This weekend also brought with it, other feelings, of the inexplicable kind that I am still even today looking for answers to.  While, it may not be the will of the Universe to find out what those answer are in the hear and now, and while the melancholy was very uncomfortable and at times, painful to contend with, like a true wolf/jackal warrior, I got through it, and along the road of self-discovery that I had traveled, learned a very rich and valuable lesson along the way:

I AM NEVER ALONE

The wonderous "community" that I belong to, is a one of great diversity, of spirtural beliefs, diversity, and openess, unlike anything else I have ever come across in my 36 years of existence.  Complicated and full of complexities on multiple levels, it is  one that I understand and relate to perfectly, as I have assismilated myself into it, embasing its openess and diversity.

The road new adventures and experiences this wolf/jackal continues on.  A world full of richness and prosperity, and one also full challenges and adversities.  This is what we all encounter on the road called "life"

Onward and Upward,

Rukario

 Today, brought an awakening of sorts, a revival, a renewed sense of purpose to a very dear friend of mine.  Reflecting back, an the words that were just transcribed, gave me a minute to reflect myself, to really "re-discover" where my true path lay.  Truthfully, the Community is not perfect by any means, and has its "dark" and "light" sides.  

It is important to realize, though on the road of life, don't we ALL have the same exact decisions that we all must make, as each new sun rises and sets?  Do our actions not determine our final outcome at some point during our lives?

The world is full of rich treasures that we are are given to share, yet, within these treasures are darker more forboding forces at work, whose motive is to destroy the good that has been created?  

When purpose is seemed to be lost amoungst the discombobulation, it truly is never lost, but requires a conscious understanding of one's true beliefs, and one's seeking out their true heart and soul to find which that they thought  was lost.    

Radjn....the kind and gentle hearted, you have proven that you do have mastered the true power that lies within us all -- the power of strength, courage, and wisdom.  The power of humility and being humble, to understand, that yes, "To err is REALLY INDEED human." 

My post to Radjin follows below.  Maybe as some of you read this, perhaps you yourself will have a similar revelation.  

-- Rukario

Good Afternoon Radjin:

This is Rukario, we had spoken several times via e-mail, and I had stated what an impact your legacy had had on my decision to get involved in the community. 

You had warned with cautious optimism, the "darker sides" of this community, and I listed with an open ear, and un-sequestered heart to your words, not really fully comprehending the full context of their meaning as it related to the Community (or "Fandom" as you desicribe) itself.

Needless to say, you departure from the community from that was told to me by a mutual friend of ours, hit me, HARD! Not because of what you THOUGHT you may had become (which incidently, I never thought for a second "flirtatious actions" or otherwise. I thought of all the GOOD you had done for so many, all the smiles you had transformed from frowns, all the hearts you filled with joy, and a very profound piece of poetry that MAYBE I will get to read to you.

This community, while dynamic in its thoughts, beliefs and diversities, is also a temtation for some, to hide within its shadows as an escape from that we know as the "real-world" which can be, and sometimes is, very cruel and unforboding.  This is reality, and sometimes, reality and the community commingle with each other, and if left unchecked, results in a flood of things that are usually un-expected or un-welcome.

Through it all, this is also the story of life, the real-world, not seen through the eyes of a 36 year old wolf-jackal, but seen through the eyes of a 36 year old man, who has had profound changes impact his life, as a result of the decision he has made and the resulting consequences that soon ensued.  

My friend, that is life, and life often has us asking, "Why?" and that question alone, does often require us to search within ourselves and ask, "What truly have I become?" 

Through it all, your perservered, and amoung the very many that love and care about you both inside and out, I am very glad you did.  You will always have a friend here, for life through good times and bad.  Radin...the Kind and Gentle Hearted.

Rukario
rukario71@yahoo.com

The search for work, continues.  A full time affairs in and of itself, the process can be both enligtening and infuriating all in one discombobulated mess.   It is all good, I find myself having to "re-teach" and re-think ideas that were sensible at the time, now seem old and antiquated.

Progress is being made, and that is the important thing. :)

Roo:

I like those pants.  Nice choice of colors too. 

Rukario